I put a 30 mins in my work calendar and sat down to write my thoughts. It felt good. I remember I used to love writing and I suddenly remember I used to have a wordpress account couple of years ago. Reading my old posts felt a bit funny with a strike of epiphany through each one. Something that is constant is change and uncertainty.
My daughter is now two years old and like every mommy, I will probably be talking a lot about her. I will try not to. Priorities change through time, but it is amazing how most people can work out their way through different level of challenges thrown at them, be it at work or at home. One of the a-ha moment I learnt recently is about Imposter Syndrome. I didn’t realize that I put myself as victim under several circumstances until someone else shared their experience with me. This psychological phenomenon build a belief in you that you are not competent enough to do a job despite of your skills. Women often have to juggle between work and home, different priorities and in the puzzle of balancing it perfect, we forget to think about ourselves. We forget what we have and what we are good at. We lose our self confidence and outlook for life. I lost few good opportunities thinking I will not be able to handle it because I am a mom. Then, I see a lot of moms climbing corporate ladders at work which makes me think if they can, why not me? Of course, every situation is different, everyone has different priority. Some may have good financials and help, some may be working double extra hard to be where they are now. Some may be in worse situation than mine. Grass is always greener on the other side. 20 years down the line when my kid is grown up and independant and my husband looks at sick wrinkled lady, who will take care of me and who will I share my thoughts with? Its ‘I’. I need to take care of myself, I need to choose my friends who will be there through thick and thins, I will need to make sure I will be happy.
Life is amazing 